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#BookReview: Mad Diet by Suzanne Lockhart #MPBooks

Mad Diet book coverTitle: Mad Diet

Author: Suzanne Lockhart

Publisher: Coronet

Genre: Non-fiction, Diet, Health

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Description: Are you depressed or struggling to lose weight?  You are not alone.  1 in 4 people are suffering from mental health problems and two thirds of us are obese or overweight.  Something is clearly very wrong.  Mad Diet lifts the lid on what is really going on with our food and provides an easy guide to restoring your mind and waistline.

Mad Diet provides a fresh new approach to healthy eating, in a market full of ‘gurus’ who don’t have the scientific knowledge to back up their claims, Suzanne Lockhart provides an accessible, scientific and empowering approach to healthy eating.Read More »

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#BookHaul: Bookbridgr January 2018 part 2 #MPBooks

I’ve received another wonderful book in the post a few days ago.  It was an extra special surprise seeing as I’d forgotten all about requesting it!  I’d thought the book might come before Christmas and then after the holiday I completely forgot I’d ever requested it!

This wonderful non-fiction book comes courtesy of the Bookbridgr and Coronet.  It’s a book I’m especially keen to read given the fact that it is not only about food but also depression, something I have no shame in admitting I sometimes suffer from.  Take a look (apologies, I’ve only just realised how dim the light was when I took this so the book and paper look a little darker than they are!):

So excited to read this book, I love the cover! 🙂

Mad Diet by Suzanne Lockhart – Science reveals the truth about how our food is making us mad and fat.  Are you depressed or struggling to lose weight? You are not alone. 1 in 4 people are taking antidepressants and two thirds of us are obese or overweight. Something is clearly very wrong. Mad Diet lifts the lid on what is really going on with our food and provides an easy guide to restoring your mind and waistline.  Mad Diet provides a fresh new approach to healthy eating, in a market full of ‘gurus’ who don’t have the scientific knowledge to back up their claims, Suzanne Lockhart provides an accessible, scientific and empowering approach to healthy eating.  By detailing how harmful processed foods are, and showing your how to eat better for your body and your mind, Mad Diet enables you to change your outlook on food with positive outcomes for your mental health. As Suzanne says: ‘We really are what we eat. If we change what we eat we can change ourselves. And if we do that we might just change the world!’

So, what do you think?  I’ve always been interested in natural methods for combating/controlling illness so that’s why I’m personally very interested in reading this book.  But how about you?  Is this a book you’re interested in reading?

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The Gremlins in my Head #MPBooks

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For most of yesterday I’ve been feeling like the cat in the picture.  I’ve had a splitting headache, found it hard to function and am struggling hard to shut out thoughts of guilt and sadness which have plagued me since I started coming down with something a few days ago.

I don’t like to admit I’m not feeling good, but the truth is that although the last few days of last week I’d been feeling positive, I started to come down with something and it seems relentless in wanting to put me on bed rest.  I feel like I’ve got a sleeping sickness, I’m just so tired all the time and when I sleep, which has been for most of the last two days, I don’t feel refreshed at all 😦

Though I suspect (and hope) that all I’ve come down with is a nasty virus or similar, it’s the negative impact on my mood that’s really worried me.  I try to keep myself cheerful and upbeat, in fact I want to feel positive, but something inside, almost like a disconnected thing is trying to bring my mood down and bring in all these horrible negative thoughts which ultimately plunge me into depression.

Sometimes it’s been so easy for me in the past to give in to these thoughts, to embrace the pain and horrible feeling they give me of guilt and upset.  It’s been so easy to give up, to let go, to enter that dark realm of dark thoughts that spiral me ever further into a place I can’t crawl back from.  It’s a place, a realm, I’ve sometimes been almost eager to enter, not happy with my own life, my own existence, I’ve found it hard to even want to grab the sides of the long dark pit and crawl out.

But despite that horrid darkness, I stop.  I stop myself going there again.

It doesn’t always work out this way, of course, sometimes I relish being in that realm and enjoy breathing in the mind-choking air, but now I’m discovering I’m stronger than I think.  I can resist the urge to fall into that dark pit, or at the least I hover past its entrance, look down and fight that will to put myself there, to accept that I have to feel that way just because everything in my life seems to want me to.

Today, although I still feel ill and an incredible guilt is filling me for not being able to keep up my personal commitment to check in with all you wonderful people and your blogs, I still resist the urge to get fully depressed.  It’s almost like I’m fighting myself and the happy me is winning this battle.  I refuse to let the depression take hold, to let it throw me into that pit, to make me resist the urge to leave.  Today I am okay.

Does this mean it’s not possible to become depressed like that again?  No.  It just means that today, I’m coping better than I used to with this thing, and I’m determined to not let it control me.

Well I went off-topic here, waaay off-topic and wrote something from the heart based on my emotions and how I’m feeling today.  I am still feeling ill and this post was a real depiction of how I feel and became far more raw than I thought it would be.  I’ll be posting up a lot of book review posts the coming days which I’ve prepared so I can sleep off this (hopefully a virus) thing.  
  Inspired by the daily prompt: Gremlins

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Hello…Anyone Miss Me? #MPBooks

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Hello everyone.  I’m not sure if anyone’s missed me or even noticed my absence but it’s true, I’ve been away for a while and the reasons aren’t as great as I would like to pretend they are.  You see, quite a few things came up in my personal life and while I don’t really want to talk publicly about what’s been going on, all the little problems I’ve been having suddenly led me to feeling pretty low.

When I feel down over things it’s easy for me to recover but my go-to thing when depression’s on the horizon or trying to kick in is to withdraw.  I’m not in a bad place at the moment, in fact I’ve been able to bounce back out of it quite well but it’s just the thing I tend to do.  I am sorry though to everyone for not staying in touch, I hope I haven’t upset anyone with my absence :/

To be honest it wasn’t just my own personal issues which made me feel down, it was also this blog, or rather the things that I’ve been receiving through this blog.  While I thought having a blog filled with my favourite bird, the wonderful peacock, would be very special, the fact is that I received quite a few twitter messages from very disturbing or disturbed people (a lot of it sex related 😦 ).  I began to wonder if I should even keep this blog going, considering how many strange messages I got from these ‘people’.

If I’m honest, I’m still wavering a bit on what to do.  The blog’s views have plummeted to almost none for several weeks now and although I never expected the following I had on my old blog (Happymeerkatreviews), I can’t lie that I do feel a little sad that I didn’t manage to connect with more people from there, especially some I called friends.  The low views also make me feel bad for the publishers who have sent me their books in return for exposure (good or bad) as their books clearly aren’t receiving much viewing on this blog at the moment.


I have made a promise to myself and this blog, and of course you guys if you are still around, to get through this strange slightly sad feeling and to push past it as I don’t want to be sad for my own birthday (in November) and I don’t want to dampen the upcoming Xmas (and maybe Halloween) spirit which will hopefully be felt on this blog.

So I hope you will forgive my wavering and my slight blip and want to keep reading this blog and the things I put here.  I do have lots of reviews I’ve written but just haven’t placed up here yet, including all ten Anthony Browne books from the collection.  I’ll put them up now and hopefully get a new post going everyday for you too as well as visit some blogs as soon as I am able.  I’ll also spend the day replying to all your messages.  Thank you everyone and I hope you’ll want to stick around ❤

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Do You Over-Worry? #MPBooks

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Yesterday some things happened and as a result I made my friend feel bad over something really silly.  It was nothing I had really done to hurt them.  It was a silly mistake over posting the wrongly worded comment which some other people may have taken the wrong way (I say may as I didn’t think it would have been seen as something bad) but my friend thought differently.  In an effort to save face my friend deleted some of our communications and whike some of our conversations were deleted, others were private and yet others were left publicly in tact.  In the end a lot of our public conversation made no sense.  My friend feels terrible and consequently I feel terrible too.  Nothing has really happened and my friendship hasn’t been damaged (at least I don’t think it has) so everything will be fine…or will it?

For most people the sadness or any guilt they may feel over what happened wouldn’t affect them long term.  But that’s not what traditionally happens with me, or at least not what has happened in the past.

I make it no secret that I have suffered from severe depression and I’d be lying if I still didn’t go into that dark place sometimes.  But I also suffer from anxiety and a specific symptom inhabits me that I’ve been fighting for years.  It’s an overwhelming feeling of worry, often coming from a feeling of guilt.  This guilt is usually unjustified though.  It comes from the place in my mind wired to think the worst. ‘I could have done something else.  Does that person hate me?  I embarrassed myself.  Everyone’s going to hate me’.  These are some of the thoughts that plague my mind.

Thinking in this way is unhealthy and does nothing but make me feel terrible.  Although the guilt everyone feels at some point is natural and a way for us to know we have done something wrong, with some mental health conditions such as anxiety this guilt is accelerated to a level far beyond what it was supposed to be.

For me personally I’ve been through a difficult journey, one I’m still going through if I’m honest.  But I have learned techniques, ways to diminish the guilt I naturally feel.  I don’t always find it easy but these days I take some time away and find ways to replace the ‘guilty’ thoughts with ones that are more sensible such as ‘I could have done something else.  But that person doesn’t hate me.  Maybe I embarrassed myself, but nobody will hate me’.

In my own personal situation with my friend, I know there’s no real guilt to be felt and I hope my friend feels the same.  It was a silly misunderstanding (at least it could be taken as a misunderstanding.  My friend and I don’t have any issue over this ourselves), one that should never have happened, but it’s nothing to feel guilty over.

I decided to write this post as I wanted to share some of the difficulties I face with depression and more importantly anxiety.  It’s not easy to suffer from any form of anxiety.  Many people dismiss anxiety for nothing more than mere ‘fretting’, but for people who have anxiety disorders, the feelings you have, in this case of guilt, are very real.  You are not alone if you feel this way.  And it’s okay to have a bad day when you feel terrible, but it’s important to change those negative thoughts into more positive ones, thoughts that can help move you forward rather than stay stuck.

If you feel this way feel free to share your anxiety problems or any other mental health problems you have if you wish.  Mental health should be something we can freely talk about, so we can stop the prejudice against it and help anyone who may be suffering to feel supported and not alone.

Have you ever felt extreme worry or guilt?  How do you feel about mental health and speaking openly about it?  Please let me know I’d love to hear from you. 

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ps I’m away for a lot of today travelling so my responses may be quite delayed.